I have recently put a profile on Fetlife. I was looking to set up a profile on one of those dating websites like alt.com. But after my experience with Fake Dam I was hesitant.
So the reason I chose Fetlife was because I thought I could talk to like minded people and get more information on the lifestyle so I can see where it is that I sit ie am I suited to D/S relationship or a domestic discipline or a master/slave relationship.
I have recently started to talk with a guy on there. He doesn’t want to deal with time wasters, which is fair enough. So I showed him the post on the Fake Dom just so he knew that there would be times when I “flip-flop” and get scared.
He was accepting of that and understood not to move to fast into talking on the phone let alone meet in person.
Though I got a little worried last night.
I don’t know if it’s because I had my first assessment interview with a psychiatrist to see whether I would be suitable for psychotherapy of if its my instincts. But he has be showing me hypnotherapy videos he uses during play.
Personally I don’t think they really work. I mean I do get turned on by them but I’m not sure if its the woman in the background moaning and other vocalized noises of pleasure or what. I was also relaxed. But that is the goal of the videos.
At the end of the video it ends with “slave activation mode on”. I doesn’t really do much for me at the moment. I don’t have any desire to call anyone Master as a result.
But I was thinking. Pre coitus if warming me up is done right I am normally relaxed and suggestible. My worry is what if their both combined, the videos and the right kind of foreplay? Or the person is there to re-enforce the videos?
Scary, I have so much to learn and be wary of.